Soothing.

I love hearing all the words he says. I love both these songs.
Brandon, I adore you're beautiful mind!

It has been a while.

Hmm, I haven't been on this for a while now.
Kind of gotten busy with others things, well I'm applying for graphic design course at the moment and I am doing mybest to work on the poster I have to design, oh it's the requirements of the application :)

Anyway, Eid was on October 1st. I'd like to say 'Eid Mubarak' to every one. Food was everywhere, everyone was around, forgiving one and another for mistakes they've done towards each other :)

Eid has always been my favourite, until I got sick. Really sick, I should say. I stayed at home for two days and had anti biotics for five days.

I am muchhh better now though :)
Little cough here and there, but over all I am healthy again!

Anywho, I am off for now.
I have to continue working on the poster!

Ciao
x

Eid is around the corner.

Today is the seventeenth day of fasting.
I've been doing just fine, and Ramadhan this year has been easy, Alhamdulillah.

I can not wait till' Eid :)
Free of all kinds of exploitation and corruption, and maintaining the sanctity of our society. For this purpose, the holy month of fasting (Ramadhan) was selected to help prepare ourselves, for this responsibility.

It is a time to give in charity to those in need, and celebrate with family and friends the completion of a month of blessings and joy. I can 't wait to visit various family and friends, give gifts (especially to the children), and make phone calls to my distant relatives to give well-wishes for the holiday.

Ah I am so excited! :)

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan.

If there is a day, there Must Be a night
If there is black, there must be white
If there is a mistake, there must be forgiveness

Mata kadang salah melihat..
Mulut kadang salah berucap..
Hati kadang salah menduga..
Maafkan segala kekhilafan yang pasti ada..

Mohon Maaf Lahir dan Batin.
Marhaban Ya Ramadhan.
Welcome the holy month of Ramadhan for Muslims all over the world.

Bulan dimana nafas kita menjadi tasbih, tidur kita menjadi ibadah, amal kita diterima dan doa kita di ijabah, sebelum cahaya surga padam, sebelum hidup berakhir,
sebelum pintu tobat tertutup, sebelum Ramadhan datang, saya mohon maaf lahir dan batin.

Taqqobalahu Minna Waminkum, Taqoballahu Ya Karim, Marhaban Ya Ramadhan. Allaahumma baariklanaa fi Sya’ban wa ballighnaa Ramadhan. Ya Rabb, berkahi kami pada bulan Sya’ban dan pertemukanlah kami dengan bulan Ramadhan.

Selamat menunaikan Ibadah Puasa 1428 H. Mohon Maaf Lahir Batin. Bersama kita lebur kekhilafan, baik disengaja maupun tidak di sengaja. Semoga dengan puasa, kita akan dipertemukan dengan Keagungan Lailatul Qadar dan kita semua menjadi pilihanNya
untuk dikabulkan doa-doa, dan kembali menjadi fitrah.

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

Wassalamu’alaikum Wr Wb.

Back to Sydney, back to routine.

Amanda is back in Sydney!!! :)

Well since Monday morning really.. It was such a looooong trip, but worth the the pain! My butt was literally cramping through out the trip. HAHA!

However the whole trip was very good. I had so much fun being with my love ones and my close friends. We went pretty much shopping! Sight seeing, and shopping, then eating out and shopping again! Hehe.. I have probably spent right about $500 on shopping. I know i could have slowed down on that, but hey it wasn't too bad anyway :)

We left on Thursday night, at around 11 pm. None of the girls drove, because i guess the boys were better drivers anyway. They're more focused than us ladies. But as soon as the sun rise, i was on the wheel! :) It wasn't too bad either! I enjoyed driving for bout few hours. Then not long after i drove, we hit the Melbourne city! Rahadian continues the driving coz melbourne road is soooo damn confusing. HAHA!

Any who, we got there pretty quick i reckon. At round about 10 am, we were already driving around looking for our hotel. We got there pretty much half an hour later, but we couldn't even check in, coz the checking time was suppose to be 2 pm in the afternoon. So we drove around, wasting our precious petrol for a lil trip around the city. We went on to St. Kilda road, parked our car on the side of the road with a HUGE park nearby. I wasted time, taking snaps of this special monument. (kind of forget what it was called). We slept in car just to catch up on it, even for a little bit just to waste the time away.

Then not long after, we went back to the hotel and checked in! :)
We basically rest up, showered then hit the road again for another mission in the Melbourne city!

I will upload the pictures very soon. Maybe later on tonight, coz I'm at work at the moment. HAHA!!

Back to Sydney, which simply means back to routine, back to my desk, back to my phone calls.


But it is as all good! I had such wonderful time spending a weekend in Melbourne. In conclusion, it was all worth it, and i hope everyone had a wonderful time like i did!

Till' next blog!

Adios. x

Melbourne.

I'm heading off to Melbourne tonight, road trip here we come!
We're driving down there, and it's going to be a minimum 10 hours drive. Sure our butts will cramp along the way, but it's still exciting! :P

It's going to be the eight of us, Rahadian, my brother Arza, my best friend Vira, Fitri, Randy, Anda, Bunga and myself of course. Bunga is Anda's girlfriend who's here in Sydney for a full month visit. She's from Indonesia, and she misses her significant other, Anda! So basically the trip is really for her, since she wanted to see how Melbourne is so badly, we figured "Hey let's make a road trip and stay there for a weekend!" :)

It was all planned about 2 weeks ago, things are already in control. We're driving there tonight, will get there tomorrow morning and we will be back in Sydney by sunday. Rahadian has booked the two bed rooms apartment/hotel, and as well as our 8 seater car! (It's going to be a mission, not forgetting that we have a full car with our luggages) Hehe..

On top of everything else, it's going to be an awesome weekend. A little gate away for every one of us! Sure we will be so exhausted when we get back, but this should be good!

Shopping time, for me!!! :)

I'll write again, when i get back!

Adios. x

Our Engagement Day 23.02.08

On Thursday night, January 16, 2008, Rahadian took me to have a nice quiet dinner at Brighton Le Sands, assuming it was because we have just found out the great news of him becoming an uncle in nine months time. I thought he was going to take his family and i to have a dinner together, but turned out that he was taking ONLY me out on a weekday "dinner", which is quiet weird since we usually only go out on the weekend. So I asked him "What's the occasion?" he said, "Oh nothing, just want to take you out."

We got there not long after, he sat me down and we ordered our food.

We talked pretty much about anything. I was really excited of him becoming an uncle! Then we also talked about how great things have been for the both of us since we got together. We found it so much easier to connect to one and another, not only to each other but also to both our families. My family seem to love him, the first time he was around and vice versa, I have never felt so welcomed and comfortable with another family, but his. I love his mother, and i adore how much of a great role model she is. His father is very wise, and very easy to talk to, we could talk for hours. His brother is such a nice person, very genuine and cares for his family. Nothing seems to be better than a man(person) who cherish their family so much. That is one of the reasons why, i adore Rahadian, it is his ability to be a family man, the one who look after his family and i know one day, he can take good care of me too.

Not long after he spoke about how easy things have been for the both of us, Rahadian asked if i wanted me to be with him, and to spend the rest of my life with him as his wife..

It sure was the happiest day of my life and there is no way i could say no to that request. I will get married to him whenever, wherever.. Even in a potato sack dress
if it means that I could spend the rest of my life with him.

Picture above, is right after i said yes!! x

About few days after i said yes, he approached both my parents and ask my father for my hand in marriage. They say yes, and they were happy for us. I know that my parents were not too worried handing off their little girl to Rahadian who will take just as good care of me as my parents have. They also know that Rahadian will make the commitment.. that he’ll always honor, respect, and cherish their daughter.

We were officially engagement on Saturday, 23 February 2008, three days right after my 21st birthday :)


My gorgeous ring. x


Here's the slideshow of the special day.

My Starlight.

Far away
This ship has taken me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing a starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to re-ignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold..

I dedicate this song to my other half, Rahadian
I love you, sayang.. x

All praises due to Allah SWT.

Assalamualaikum Wr. Wb.

First of all I'm treating this like as if I'm writing a blog.
A letter to Allah SWT, the most gracious, most merciful.
I have been blessed, to have my family, friends and I'm aware of the good things before or present that you've given me in this life.

I'd like to take this second as a reminder that no matter how hard your life can get, if you keep your faith within Him, may Allah give you happiness in the end.

It was hard & tough for me at one stage of my life, just trying to find myself and discover the true meaning of love and life. My surroundings then somehow made me lost and made me almost forget of who i really am and how i should live my life.

Alhamdulillah, all praises due to Allah SWT. He's given me strength to stand strong in the bad times, and to give me basic senses just how fair Allah SWT really is. I never realised then, that Allah SWT gives us so many opportunities to make our life better at any time. It's just sometimes human being can be blinded and could not see that fate is what you make of it, and with His approval you shall live your life in peace and with success. (InsyaAllah)

My family is everything to me. My mother is everything to me.
They gave me enough guidance to be a good person and umah in His eyes and i shall take that understanding to be better, insyaallah in anything that i do.

To everyone who seems to care about me, it's such a blessing just how much faith they hold for me and how much support they've shown me. They believe in me that I'm stronger and smarter. Insyaallah i will be as good to them and i hope i can be useful as a friend, family, sister or partner.

I'd like to wish and pray for everyone who i can think of whether i know or don't know you, May Allah will always bless you upon your good deeds in life or the life after. Please give your blessings to them Ya Allah.. Please give them your mercy because you are the most merciful and the most gracious.

For those my love ones whom have passed away, rest in peace for InsyaAllah we shall meet again in the life after. Bless be upon you.

I've realised that sometimes im not as thankful, but i shall live life with my faith to you Ya Allah.. please keep on giving me your direction, coz Your way is the only way for us, your umah should live our lives, follow the sunah from Prophet Muhammad the last messenger of Allah and to live life with Your guidance and direction for mankind, Qur'an.

I guess this is the end of my blog. Surat dan doa dari hamba-Mu.

Wasalamualaikum Wr. Wb.

Another overwhelming day.

Hmm, hello again blog!

Im just here sitting on my desk, at work. As per usual, the so called "BUSY" amanda is dying from her boredom! yeah.. friendster is certainly keeping me sane, and at this point of time i am listening to few songs on my "i am-so-bored-at-work playlist". One in particular reminds me of him. It's called Give it back by Gaelle. Yeah... him, the one that i love the most! :)

When ever i hear this song, it takes me back to the moment he asked me to be with him for the rest of is life as his wife. Well, since the song was being played during that render speechless moment. hehehe.. From that day on, both our life will change and it will be for the better. Im still overwhelmed with the thought of it, being together committing ourselves with each other's loyalty and devotion, creating a happy family one day.

Though, at times.. there are few questions in my head, longing for answers.
I don't have any doubts, but i am a human being. I do too get a little scared in facing anything that's new in life, above all, of course the grave decisions such.. getting married! hehehe..

I am confident though, that everything will be fine and everything will go well as what we've planned. (Insyaallah, Amin)I am aware that i am still 21 years old (atm) and i have my things to achieve in life. I sometimes envy those who have done it all, but then again, every step of our individual life is about learning, whether it's learning a 4 years course in University or even some tips learning how to change your baby's nappy in the most effective way. lol

Well you know what i mean! :P

Another overwhelming day, i am going through each of it with him,
even if at times i find him being the biggest nuisance, just for those petty little things that makes me put on my bitchy-face and say things like "Why aren't you listening to me????" or something else that goes like "Can you please stop it????" hahahha. *sighs*

Above all these, i feel so right being with him. Naturally, i feel cherished and loved for each time whenever he holds me close. A little hug might always be just a hug, but to me, his hug means more beyond the word hug. lol
I feel so secure and as corny as this gets, i feel like with him next to me, there's no darkness i can't overcome.

I hope I'm not crazy at all. I just love HIM a little too much. LOL


Well, writing this kept me quiet occupied :)
Until next time, ADIOS! x

Muhammad Aaryan Malik.

My fiance Rahadian, is now an uncle. Rahadian's brother Haris has been blessed with such joy, a baby boy who was born on August 15th 2008, at 11.50 pm, weighing at 2.85 kg and length of 45.5 cm.



He was born premature, early by 4-5 weeks. Although, he is quiet big for an eight months old baby, he is also very strong and aggressive (just like the father) :P
We are so happy for both haris and Evi. Evi's labour was so short, it was so good and lucky of her to go through SUCH pain in a very short period of time. Her contraction started at around 9 pm on that Saturday, and beautiful Aaryan was born and came out by 11.50 pm. Alhamdulillah! She was also very cooperative through out the process of labour, as i was told by the midwife. She has done a very good job, bringing baby Aaryan to this world! :)


Alhamdulillah Allah SWT has blessed Thahar's family,
which soon to be my family too. In my eyes they are my own family. Aaryan is the first son, grandson, and nephew in Thahar's family. Things have been going really good for every one of us. My family, Rahadian's family and especially our plan getting married next year, has also been well prepared.

InsyaAllah i will too one day be blessed to have a beautiful baby on my own. Rahadian's beautiful baby :)

My wedding day.

I am getting married on 17th May 2009. Which is also my mother's birthday. It's going to be very special and how i can not wait for that day to come. InsyaAllah things will go well as planned.
By next year, i will be Mrs. Thahar :)

Introduction.

I love my family to bits. Both my parents and my older brother are my heroes. They are my biggest influence, because of them i am who i am now. I know that they'll always be there for me regardless, i hope i am their pride and i only want to make them happy. They always keep me strong and stay grounded!

An amazing guy named Rahadian Thahar has stolen my heart. He has never given up on me, right from the day one until now. That's what makes me fall so deeply in love with him. I can't wait to marry him, even in a potato sack dress if it means that I could spend the rest of my life with him. <3

I hate how much i love and need him by my side it's sickening. hahaha!

He taught me so much in so little time. He is the answer to my prayer, and InsyaAllah our fate will be blessed by the one Above, shall we live together until our dying day :) Amin.

Other than caring for my love ones above, I am an emotional eater who loves black & white photos. I don't think i suffer from shopoholism although i know that i have to learn to manage compulsive shopping and my spending addiction. I want to have a degree in design and i am a sucker for pretty shoes. I love kids and babies! how i can't wait to meet my own. I absolutely love the art of photography. I enjoy silly jokes that make me laugh. I love surprises and i fancy romance. I don't mind walk on the beach, dinner by candle light, roses and lilies. I love them romantic stuff! :)

Anyway i am pretty much occupied five days a week, 9am to 5pm, working with the coolest bunch of people on the Service Desk in the Sydney office. I administrate and organise technicians for three major clients/projects that i look after.

I am the youngest out of two in my family and my background is Indonesian, besides English, I can also speak fluent Indonesian. People always think that my background is something else when I first meet them, which I'm so used to now. I was born in Soroako, South Sulawesi, Indonesia. At the age of two we moved to Jakarta where I spent 11 years growing up, until our family moved to Sydney, Australia.

I love food and eating out is one of my hobbies so I tend to go out a lot to eat different types of food, Thai, Japanese, Indonesian, Italian and any other delicious food out there. I know I should be thankful for my fast metabolism because it doesn't seem like I ever gain any weight no matter how much food I consume.

There are couple of things in life that i want to do before it's all too late. I really want to.. visit the Louvre Museum in Paris, i want to take a course in photography, i want to sky dive (i hope it will be sometime soon), i want to take a hajj trip one day to Mecca and experience the La Tomatina festival in Spain, that is throwing tomatoes at everyone. I can tell you now, that you’ll never hear the end of this. Hehe!

As a child I was really quiet and extremely shy. I stuck by my mother everywhere she goes and had to be close to someone before I was nice to them. I remember that I didn't interact much with other kids and I was a tomboy (major influence from my older brother) but I'm glad that i have changed to the opposite over the years and I find myself very outgoing now. I ended up with a love of collecting shoes instead of G.I Joes and taught myself to walk in heels instead of climbing trees. lol

If i was to talk about passion, I'd have to say photography. I adore Bill Henson, he was my inspiration when taking up photography. I admire black and white photography the most. In my eyes, photography captures just about everything; moments, events, movements, meanings etc and it really takes me to the level of a different understanding of life's perspectives based on my background, views and personal experiences.

I've always believed that, everything happens for a reason, and that God has given us fate for us to live. However, one thing i do believe, fate is what you make of it. You have the control of your own life. You make your way up there, where you want to be and you make it happen the way you want it to be. It will make you appreciate yourself even more to know how hard you've worked when you look back and know you can look out for yourself. In the end of the day, life is about learning and making the right choices. I was taught by my father, whom was also taught by his father, that life is just life. You are the one who make the efforts to make it better and that also by keeping your faith strong within the One above.

Until this second, i am still trying to better than who i was yesterday. I want to be honest to myself at all time, and keep my priorities high above anything else. By being honest to myself, i hope i will keep my honesty to my love ones and others around me.

I think things in life will eventually work out in the end. I have never been one to worry about things so much, not that i never get worried. I do sometimes worry about my future, i do sometimes get scared and feel insecure, but i always believe that things will come good in the end no matter how bad things seem at the time. Sometimes, fear is something that will make you keep going. It will make you want to be better, just because... you fear that "fear" will overtake your self-control.

Any who, i forgot to mention that i also love writing. Just about anything, really.. i am sure you can notice by the things that so much I've said and mentioned above. Hehe!

Well, so far.. guess that's for today! May i continue "more about me" section some other time. Partly because my fingers are getting sore from the constant typing and i have to give you a little break from getting to now me too well. HAHA! :)

Enjoy the rest of your day.

Adios! x